Getting ready to take my work to the gallery!
Sometimes I can surprise myself how
much I've changed. This year has been such a steep learning curve in
self respect and self honour and I am so glad to have finally come to
this space. I've let go of a lot of old habits and old thoughts and
I've even let go of a few people, all of which has helped me to rise
to a deeper understanding of myself. I think one of the biggest
lessons I've learned so far this year is to completely heal my
relationship with loving others. Looking back I can see that I used
to believe that if I loved you in any way shape or form then in that
I also gave people the right to treat me any way they chose. I made
excuses for others behaviours based on MY caring for their well
being. I even in most cases put their needs before mine. That has all
changed.
I have definitely been ready this year
to put in place the boundaries and self protective energies around me
and fill myself with healing and self love so that a line drawn to
respect and protect myself wouldn't feel like revenge or malice. I
am simply not where I used to be. I don't think like I used to think
and I don't behave like I used to behave. From where I am now I look
back and cringe at some of things I've said and done. The way I used
to let people treat me used to turn my stomach but these days I am
more and more at peace with it. I have forgiven and let go. I am
absolutely certain that without the sour my life wouldn't be so
sweet.
December the first was yesterday and I
can feel a new energy wake and crawl into my system. I am catching
glimpse's of a new person waking up within me and it feels gorgeous.
I am still working on the pace and momentum of my creativity and the
knowledge that peace works on its own time still needs to reach some
corners of my mind. I am ready for it to do so though. I have project
after project lined up and ready for me to delve into although I
still haven't found that new thing I want to learn. Each year I
choose to learn a new skill. It doesn't have to be anything huge,
yodelling, the cello, painting, crafting, sewing, anything really.
I've been looking at maybe sculpting or leather craft. I suppose it's
a whole year so I could choose a few things but one will be enough to
think about now.
I have a BIG week of
readings ahead and the Christmas Rush has begun. I am eager to meet
new people and see new things and see if this new evolution plays out
in my work. I know over the last few years I've been getting more
sensitive to energies which has been playing out in my readings so I
wonder if this is part of that? We'll see and I'l keep you posted! On
this lazy rainy Sunday I am going for a hot Sunday dinner in my
favourite local and then to pick up the artwork from the gallery,
after that it's a well deserved rest ready for the week ahead!
Big Love
Ryan
Some pics from the gallery!
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